i raise as pure Catholic. We are actually a Catholic Family. I usually attend mass but not always but my knowledge in Roman Catholic is firm; grew up with fear in God, like - "oi, bad yan. Magagalit sa'yo ang Diyos." . and completed my baptismal, comfirmation, first communion; I have attended numerous festivals and fiestas, weddings and Christenings; I honor Christmas and Holy weeks.
But I am not like others who are vocally open in terms of their faith. Not like others who speaks, writes, posts and memorizes Bible verses. I am not like others who always attend Sunday mass. Not like others who are active in Church works and initiatives. Not like those who always relate any actions and seek guidance in decision making to God. I dont read Bible. If you consider that as not so pure Catholic then its fine. I wont argue with you about that.
Though I did not consider myself as that religious enough in terms of showing my faith, I always pray and confesses my sin directly to God. Of course, usual Thank Yous and forgive-mes always at night in my bed. I am not perfect. I do question God's purpose too. Doubted him, but still my faith keeps my hope to be strong.
I'd say my relationship to God has foundation but not firm. I believe in Him and that was it. period. It is so just now that I came to my nerve to actually analyze my relationship in Him. Well, actually a book i am reading serves as a light that shines through my half-sleep soul. BOY MEETS GIRL helps me to quickly analyze what is lacking. The book thought me a lot about how to accept God's will, whatever it is. It introduces me to Christian life that i find so interesting.
Last Sunday, I have attended Christian praising and worship. thru a friend. And i enjoyed the way they preached. Light, unscripted, humorous, fun but filled with interesting facts that could actually feed my soul and serve as awakening to start nourishing it.
I dont know where this will lead to. I hope I still have the urge and effort to continue focusing my spiritual aspect. Im still a Catholic and don't have any plans for any conversion. Coz i still believe, religion isn't necessary to meet God. It is, merely about your faith, your works and how well you treat others.
