Juliet meets Romeo again

it was 3mons since he left without the bye's...and now he's standing infront of me without hello's. i wasnt really ready on how to react kapag dumating ung pagkakataon na toh. although we're already okay in txts, im still wondering what will happen when our eyes met. i was a bit excited not only to see him but to meet other friends as well. first time na gigimik ako with the pioneers of the BL clan. pakiramdam ko lalake din ako having a boys night out in weekdays after work. adik talga!. this was the gimik na hindi masyadong pinagplanuhan. basta na lang nabuo dahil sa isang trip at nagkayayaan sa gitna ng pakikipag bolahan sa loob ng chatrum. i dont know what reason that drives me despite that this was the first time i will be going out during weekdays at may pasok kinabukasan. ang lakas ng loob db?



there he was, waiting for me. first reaction is to hug him and asked how he was, but somehow angels kept me for doing a super obvious way of missing someone. i jump-in in his motor and as he drives away, we exchanged words in a casual way. parang casual and long lost friend lang na nag reunited. i cant feel na there have been a conflict on our past. i did not felt the pain that was haunting me when he left. to see just his dancing eyes is already enough for me to forget everything.



it was a great night for all of us though this is the first time of bein together, exchanging issues and topics. asaran, kulitan and getting to know. it was really fun to go out with guys. walang kaartehan, walang plastikan, walang insecurities and everything was just plain bonding. minsan tuloy naisip ko, sana maging lalake na lang ako coz i enjoyed treating me as one of them and not as a "girl".



from time to time, i was able to stare again to his cute eyes. and watched his childish face emotions. i giggled when he smiled and laugh when he laughed. i did not think of any "us" that day. it was just enough for me to be with him and the rest of the gang. its like the night had stopped. and everything was laughs and gigs and upbeat musics and in betweens was the desire to spill out that "i miss you" words.(and God knows how much i wanted to whisper that to him while "Love Story" was being played.)



time came that we have to go and end this illusion and be back in the reality that we have to stopped in this joyful moment. the night has ended with few hugs from bosing and lolo...and a tight hug from him and a hidden yearning scream of "imissyou".lolo was able to drive me until sa pede akong makasakay pauwi. i remember i said stupid things while we were on our way home. but, what-the-heck!...im tipsy..and he was too.



this was surely was of those moments to keep.-a night to remember?!!



but after this what??!!

hell...im just bein too advance again...i might as well as enjoy this night muna :D

dahilan

kapag inlove ka, wala daw dapat reason.
hndi mo daw kailangan ng dahilan para mahalin ang isang tao?
some may agree...

but i definitely opposed on this.

if this is true, then how will you explain...
"everything happens for a reason"

kapag tumatawa ka, kapag umiiyak ka...
wala lang ba?...e di para ka ng nalipasan ng gutom at nakalimutang mag-isip ng tama nun?..

kapag nasasaktan ka, kapag nagagalit ka...
wala lang ba? at basta trip mo lang...

kapag nagdesisyon ka ng isang bagay...
wala lang ba at gusto mo lang?


yea, lahat may dahilan..lahat may pinagmulan at lahat may kahihinatnan.
ginagawa o sinasabi mo ang isang bagay dahil may dahilan.
natutuwa ka, nasasaktan ka, nagagalit ka dahil may dahilan.

at hindi basta wala lang.
hindi mo basta dapat isipin na hindi na kailangan ng dahilan ang isang bagay para maramdaman mo ito. minsan ang pag-iisip ng dahilan ay nakakatulong para mas lalo mong maintindihan ang nararamdaman mo. malay mo dito mo makita ang sagot sa matagal mo ng tanong. hindi dapat basta ipawalang bahala at katamaran ang pag-iisip ng isang bagay na mas makakapaliwanag sa'yo ng magulong sitwasyon.

theres no such thing as loving someone without a reason.
there has to be a reason. ang pagmamahal ba sumulpot na lang bigla at naisip mo lang na mahal mo ang isang tao ng basta lang?. may dahilan kung bakit mo sya mahal. may dahilan kung bakit ayaw mo syang lumayo sau at may dahilan para umasa ka sa nararamdaman mo.

katulad ng dahilang dapat ipinaliliwanag mo sa taong nanghihingi nito upang mas lalo nyang maintindihan ang isang bagay na malabo sa kanya.

kaistupiduhan ang pagsasabing hindi kailangan ng isang dahilan upang magsabi ng isang "mabigat" na desisyong gagawin at sasabihin mo sa isang tao.ang bata, nanghihingi ng piso hindi dahil sa wala lang. dahilan pa rin kung sasabihin nyang trip lang nyang titigan ang ulo ni Rizal. at mas lalong mabigat na dahilan kung sasabihin nyang gusto nyang bumili ng kendi.

isang malaking excuses lang at pagtakas sa paglalahad ng katotohan ang pagsasabing hindi kailangan ng isang rason para magmahal ka. aminin mo man o hindi...may isa kang malaking DAHILAN.